Anxiety and Overcoming It

Anxiety

I’d been suffering from anxiety and overwhelm for years.

I was a new mother, I thought I was supposed to feel amazing, and I didn’t.

Not feeling amazing only compounded my anxiousness and made me feel unhappy with myself.

I knew it wasn’t how I was supposed to feel, but I couldn’t figure out how to snap myself out of it. So I started turning to things outside of myself.

Mommy wine culture.

Mommy wine culture was a thing when I was a new mom, it still is. I felt like everyone was using wine to self-soothe and to release themselves from the stress they were feeling. I din’t think I was the only one, quite to the contrary, I felt like I was in good company.

Motherhood.

Being a mother was the greatest blessing of my life, but it brought with it stress that I’d never experienced before and hadn’t expected. I had friends who were going through the same thing-we were all anxious. We called the anxiety stress. But at the end of the day our nervous systems were on overdrive.

Nervous Systems

Our nervous systems were taxed and we thought we could drink it into a relaxed state. I didn’t realize it at the time, but alcohol was doing the opposite. Alcohol was like gasoline on the fire. I went through enhanced anxiety for years as a new mother and then I realized alcohol was making life more stressful and my anxiety worse. So I took alcohol out of my life.

Alcoholism

I call myself an alcoholic. I could have just said that I “removed alcohol from my diet,” but truth be told, I honestly feel like I relied on it, and that’s alcoholism. It doesn’t matter what I call it, as long as I’m not drinking it. My anxiety got so much better once it was out of my life, my health transformed as did my relationship with my children, husband, family and friends.

Anxiety in sobriety

As a sober woman, a mother of three, I hoped my anxiety would disappear, but it didn’t. It was better but not gone. In the past I would have turned to alcohol to soothe my nervous system, but now I needed to do something else.

Anxious free living

I dove into personal development and used my foundation with a Bachelors in Psychology , to get certified as a life coach. It was during this time that I discovered the concept of inner child healing. The moment I heard of it I knew this was the answer to my anxiety. I was all in. I learned everything there was to learn and I integrated it into my daily life. Things began to shift. Slowly but surely my anxiety decreased. The inner child healing process is transformational and reaches deep rooted stories and patterns that are hidden in the subconscious. It is through this connection that we create a relationship with our inner child and allow her to feel parented in the way she wasn’t in her early formative years.

Hemp

In addition to the inner child healing work I integrated the use of THC free, non-psychoactive hemp products. These regulated my Endocnnabinoid System. The Canabinnoids attached themselves to the receptors on the ES and supported the areas that need to be supported. It was these products that removed all remaining signs of anxiety. The linger wafts of overwhelm disappeared.

Inner Child healing and Hemp

These two things have transformed my life as they have removed the debilitating affects of anxiety. Today I remain alcohol free and dedicated to my mental and physical health with both of these modalities.